Gloomy March

I have been in the 'writer block' for a longer duration than before..I'm stucked! .. am non productive and not even producing anything even I have spent 9.30am to 5.30pm in my office. It was not a good feeling at all...even this post has been drafted for quite some time..yet I don't feel like publishing it.
I have been in a bit low mood..as gloomy as the weather (Melbourne has been getting colder ..temperature could be as low as 11 degree with the max of 23 degree..I should be grateful as this is actually a very nice weather..)..but as if I have lost the battle in this journey.

Alhamdulillah..Allah is always with me..His mercy is always there...and my beloved are always there for me..I am lucky enough..should be grateful with what I have had..and what I should do is to move forward..keeping moving..keep reading, keep thinking..keep analysing and now am writing...alhamdulillah.

yet the gloomy feeling is still within..for the past few weeks, I have been missing home so much..I miss my late Papa dearly..I miss my Mami..I miss home...and today..my Mami is on her way to Mecca performing her umrah..with my sister, yet for the first time without Papa. Mami sounds excited when I called her..yet that was typical her..always hiding her true feeling.


also..my little girl will be going for 3 days camp..am gonna miss her too..she is always my little girl and will always be..I have been trying to persuade her for cancelling her trip (of course it failed because she has been waiting for this since last year, and she packed her lugage since last week)..she tried to console me by saying that she will only be away for just 2 nights..oh dear..am going to miss you (am I overprotecting her?).

Looking ahead..tomorrow would be a sunny day...with a top of 30 degree..hopefully the sunshine will brighten my day!InsyaAllah