Eid ul Adha

Tomorrow is my second time of celebrating eid ul Adha in Melbourne. Am feeling more dysphoric than before. My mind is rambling about the reason of this feeling. Having my children around, had pairs of baju raya (thanks to my sis of her effort to buy & post them here). Yet... I can't deny that I'm not as happy as before. No plan to cook, no mood to decorate my home as before. Perhaps the loss feeling is governed my mind.